'cause it's you and me and everyone we know

as a design/semi-art student, expression of emotions places pretty high on the list of Things I Believe In - Forrealzies. when overjoyed, i want to document it through a drawing or written journal entries. when disappointed, i have an even greater urge to write... but strangely enough, an even greater greater urge to fight against it.

i am hesitant to ever write publicly about anything that breaks my heart. to write from a broken heart means to want to send a negative message out about someone who'd done did u dirty. as big of a fan i am of people who embrace their vulnerability through expression, i am an even bigger fan of reminding yourself that you still love these people (no matter how much they may disappoint), and tarnishing their image isn't exactly the best way to show that.

i may look back on these moments and kick myself for not working with this "artistic gold", but i'd much rather just have a few less journal pages to be regretful for than the guilt and much burdening pain of hurting someone's feelings.

fridays just might be my favorite

it is summer. it has been summer. but today feels most like it. brandon will be home in an hour and a half, it is still morning time (the best time), and i've got my outfit planned out for today.

weather's lovely, temperature's just right, and there's a left over crepe to heat for breakfast!

even though i am behind schedule (haven't actually put on my planned outfit yet...) i have a good feeling that today will be the best day of this week because i woke up like this:


and will go to sleep tonight feeling like this:


always good to have you home, dear. :)

yesterday's m-day

my mom often makes me cry


not so much from anything bad she did or said,

but because i am so thankful that she will have me as her daughter :)

smile

i don't get distracted very easily when reading at the park, but i will sometimes take a break from my book just to look up for a bit. i'm thankful for this little habit because then i would not have noticed the old man swing swing swinging away on the swing set so early on a sunday morning before any noisy children can disrupt what i imagine to be his idea of a happy place.

mmhm

“Love takes off the masks we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.”

— James Baldwin

a real relationship requires realistic understandings

i don't believe in soul mates
i believe in such a thing as there being more than one person for everyone

i don't believe in fate
i believe relationships are what you make of them

i don't believe in destiny
i believe all you have to blame is yourself. stop expecting "destiny" to do all the work for you

i don't believe that "love" is all you need
i believe in respect, and that humor trumps all :)

i don't believe in perfect relationships
i believe in dedication. and people who understand what real hard work is.


i believe in doubts that later only make you appreciate your partner's undying belief that you two have something worth keeping.

dear brandon,

you are my best friend.
the love of my life.
and it's not fair.
just because jason mraz sang it first,
i can't simply say "i'm lucky" without feeling too disgustingly generic.



so i'm sorry i don't have much energy and/or time to write something cuter...

... but i still wanted to thank you for making 6 years look so easy.



:)




sincerely,

lardy nuts